When life changes it remains the same.....

OK so I'm going through some weird shit for the past little while. I'll admit it, it's like my past is coming back to make me realize things I didn't realize when the shit happened. I haven't slept good in so long and I've been sick for almost a week. But I think I'm finally starting to realize some things. Saying goodbye for good to ghosts of the past, they taught me the lessons I needed to learn.  And hopefully I really learned what I needed to learn this time.
   I'm at a really weird point in my life, I feel kinda stalled out. I'm not sure which direction to go in next. My art has suffered cuz lets face it I haven't done anything with it for too long. My photography has suffered cuz that killer edge I needed to be the best, well I don't know where it's gone, I'm trying to find it. And my writing it's went away for far too long. I want to start writing again and maybe just maybe the rest will fall into place.
   I hate to admit it but I've fallen into a depression again and this time instead of trying to get out of it I've just wallowed in it. It seems like everything took a downward spiral when I didn't get the Qwest job. I know it's stupid to pin all my hopes on one stupid job but it would of been so good for me and my kids. I can reapply in December but that seems so far away. And I know I won't really have time for job interviews in Dec because Wally World is just too damn busy and yes unfortunately thats where I work. It's good because I got the job because I needed a job but it's bad because last time I worked there everything went to hell. It's like that cycle is repeating itself again!
   I really miss my friends, I don't hear from hardly any one any more, that makes me so sad. Also makes me think that they were never really my friends if when the shit really hit the fan Again, they just up and vanish. Oh well never was one to keep to many people close.
  This is getting really depressing so i'm going to stop writing. I hope this finds all of you
in good health and spirts.
much love to my friends
~JoAnn~
Aka
Starry-Eyez-Photos

Fragile Dreams- Anathema
Tonight your soul sleeps, but one day you will feel real pain,
maybe then you will see me as I am,
A fragile wreck on a storm of emotion"

Countless times I trusted you,
I let you back in,
Knowing... Yearning... you know
I should have run... but I stayed

Maybe I always knew,
My fragile dreams would be broken for you.

Today I introduced myself,
To my own feelings,
In silent agony, after all these years,
They spoke to me... after all these years

Maybe I always knew...





MISC</i>
The Photographers Rights as by Krages www.krages.com/phoright.htm
The American Museum of Photography www.photographymuseum.com

The other side: ~The Art & The Poetry </i>

Other Websites You Can Find My Work On & Email Addy/Msgr
Model Mayhem</i> www.modelmayhem.com/StarryEyezPhotos
BeModel</i> www.bemodel.com/starryeyezphotos
Myspace</i> www.myspace.com/jellybean1922
Email</i> joann.starryeyezphotos@yahoo.com
Email</i>cinnamongurl1313@gmail.com


Clubs I Belong To:





~Starry-Eyez-Photos~ Credits
Thanks to all that have posed for me and/or had me take photos of your band!
All Photos Are Shot on Locations in Utah Unless Otherwise Noted.

Models I've  photographed
Raven -  friend
Julie -  friend
Tammy -  friend
DereK -  Seasons of Change(local band)
Twist -  The Fuzz Plugz (local band - during his time with Hatepiece)

Sports Teams I've photographed
Salt City Derby Girls www.myspace.com/saltcityderby&…;


The Bands I've photographed  (alphabetical order)


8 Points Of Chaos www.myspace.com/8eightpointsof…

Adapt www.myspace.com/adapt1

Apiary www.myspace.com/apiary

Apathy www.myspace.com/apathyband

Balance of Power www.myspace.com/balanceofpower01  

Below Me

Blood of Saints www.myspace.com/bloodofsaintsmusic

Blessed

Brick Bath www.brickbath.com www.myspace.com/brickbath

Cave of Roses www.myspace.com/thecaveofroses…;

Deconstruct www.myspace.com/deconstruct

Divine Rite www.myspace.com/divineriteband

Eleventh Hour www.myspace.com/eleventhhour66…

Firehouse www.firehousemusic.com www.myspace.com/1990firehouserocks  

Force Of Habit

Frustrations Gripp www.myspace.com/frustrationsgr…;

Hanger 18 www.megadethtribute.com

Hatepiece(R.I.P.) www.hatepiece.com www.myspace.com/hatepiece

Hooga www.myspace.com/hooga inseecure.tripod.com/

House of Atreus www.myspace.com/houseofatreus1

Hypnogaja www.myspace.com/hypnogaja

Idiocracy www.idiocracytheband.com/ www.myspace.com/idiocracymusic

Jezus Rides a Riksha www.cornerband.com/html/bandPa… www.myspace.com/jezusrides

Judging Eye(Formly Drooling Dogs)(R.I.P.)www.ddogs.net/

Katagory V www.myspace.com/katagoryv

Kohabit www.myspace.com/kohabit www.kohabit.com

MEAT www.meatmusic.com www.myspace.come/meatband www.myspace.com/meatmusic

Medicine Circus www.medicinecircus.com www.myspace.com/medicinecircus

Monorchist  www.myspace.com/Monorchist

NirDeth www.nirdeth.com www.myspace.com/nirdeth

Luchador www.myspace.com/luchador

Lusa www.myspace.com/lusaslc

Oxido Republica www.myspace.com/oxidorepublica

Post Riot www.myspace.com/postriot …;

Ravings of a Madman www.myspace.com/ravingsofamadman

Reaction Effect www.myspace.com/reactioneffectband

Ronny Munroe of Metal Church(was at Dimebag Memorial Show) www.metalchurch.com/

Rule of Thumb www.myspace.com/lvruleofthumb

Signal www.myspace.com/signalarmy

Season of Change www.myspace.com/seasonofchange1

Separation of Self www.myspace.com/separationofself

Shredbettie www.shredbettieband.com/home www.myspace.com/shredbettie

Sons of Nothing www.myspace.com/sonsofnothing

[Bullet; Red]Sunset Strip www.myspace.com/sunsetstriprox…;

[Bullet; Red]Super So Far www.supersofar.com/ www.myspace.com/supersofar

[Bullet; Red]The Fuzz Plugz www.myspace.com/thefuzzplugz

[Bullet; Red]The Iron Maidens www.theironmaidens.com www.myspace.com/theironmaidens

[Bullet; Red]The Little Dolls www.thelittledolls.com www.myspace.com/thelittledolls

[Bullet; Red]The Red Line(R.I.P) www.myspace.com/theredlineslc

[Bullet; Red]Til She Bleeds www.myspace.com/tilshebleeds

[Bullet; Red]Wounded Knee www.myspace.com/woundedkneeban…